Thanks for reading my piece and for your kind response. Yes, to all those pangs of loss, wondering what's happening when we are not there and missing out on critical small moments. The unnaturalness of it is what is so hard to explain to parents who have not been in this boat. I sometimes am able to soothe myself that our time together wouldn't be as special because I would have taken it for granted if it was all the time, and I do make the most of the time we have together. That helps, sometimes, and sometimes I just feel the loss.